I’ve been having a lot of self revelations lately.  I never understood what “finding yourself” meant when I was younger, but I feel like during college I never really knew who I was.  Lately, I’ve been remembering events, or lessons that I’ve learned from past turmoils and they sort of explain why I am the way I am. Like they say, you won’t know where you’re going if you don’t know where you came from.  That’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I know why my flaws are what they are.  I understand why I shut people off so easily or why I still have a wall built up… why I’m stand-offish, or why I use anger to cover up other seemingly weak emotions. I understand why in my relationship, I haven’t allowed myself to fall completely, or to openly flaunt my relationship as much as I’ve done with others in the past.  But long story short, realizing what your flaws are is a good feeling.  That’s why I’ve always appreciated blunt honesty from friends.  Knowing what I have to work on and understanding why I have to work on it are the first steps to becoming a woman, an adult, free of the same worries I once had as an insecure young person.  And besides, can you fully enjoy a life without the comfort of being your true self?